Love the feeling when you finish a book!

I wouldn't usually pick a book like this, but I ended up really enjoying it. The innocence of childhood is so sweet and naive. It made me smile a lot! It was also interesting to see how Du, the vietnamese narrator, adjusted to the culture of the US.
I reccomend! : )

a whole lotta nothin

hello again!
I have slightly given up/ taken a very long break from cleaning my room. So I decided I'd update my blog. Right now I'm listening to the great frank sinatra and I just finished watching Glee with my sister. BOY DO I LOVE GLEE! It is my favorite show! : ) I can't wait until next week because everyone seems so unhappy and I want that to change! haha so much drama! My day was pretty boring today. I browsed through fashion blogs almost all day long and got very inspired by beautiful things!
When I woke up this morning I had the craziest dream. I think it's my anti-depressants but lately I just feel like I'm on some kind of acid trip or something lol they're great though! I usually don't want to wake up because I can't wait to see what happens next! Dreams are so odd, your mind just like keeps going and going. YUPP. anyways my mom made me and egg sandwich with an english muffin this morning which I thought was sweet. They are really trying to have a relationship with me and it like makes me cry. I am so angry with them ALL THE TIME and I don't know why. I think I'm mad because they haven't made an effort to get to know me before, but I need to forgive them for that in order to have a relationship. It's just my first reaction to avoid them or not make conversation. I've done it for so long it's natural to me. It definitely needs to change though. I need to be conscious of how I act around them. lol ok note to self..
I vid-chatted with my friend Jules today. She's living in Ohio right now because her family is having money issues and her father got a job there. I was sooooo happy to hear that she is having fun now! She has a bunch of really cool friends and works at H&M. She even has a romantic interest who is moving to Mass! I really hope it works out because she's moving back here in the spring and she deserves someone great : ) I miss her a lot. Wow. I'm sort of tearing lol I'm just thinking about how much she means to me and how happy I am that I have such amazing friends, no matter where in the world I am : ) (like triple smiley and heartsss!) lol ok this is getting a little corny.
OH. this is important: MY HAIR WAS IN A FUCKING HUGE DREADLOCK TODAY. I hadn't brushed it for a couple days and I reached my hand to the back of my head and it was like a wet-matted dog. I was horrified and I almost cried brushing it out it was so painful. I also have a nice collection of my hair in my trashcan. YA. it was pretty awesome.
I've decided that I should put more pictures on this blog. I literally don't know how to upload pictures from my camera on my computer though lmao I usually just use my computer downstairs. I'll have to figure that out. I was thinking today about how much I love my shoe collection lol and I'm going to take a picture of every single pair : ) and post them on here and my other blog.... cuz I'm cool and clearly all of my 0 followers want to see my shoes!
YUPPP!
oh I made a lot of plans today actually. These are some fun things that I'm looking forward too!
This weekend I'm going to one of Colin's shows. Colin is one of my best friends who is in love with me and I'm secretly in love with him as well. I believe we'll get married someday, which is really stupid lol but anyways i'll tell you more about Colin later. His band is in the final round of battle of the bands this friday at Relay for Life so I'll go to that. I'm their roadie/groupie except I don't hook up with any of them, although in my dream last night the lead singer was my boyfriend. weird. That should be really fun though! I'll help them set up and then we'll probably all hang out afterwards. They keep telling me to audition for background vocals but last time I missed my audition we had planned because Colin and I sort of got into a weird situation where I thought he was mad at me and didn't want me to be in the band because it was "his thing" where actually the whole time he wasn't even mad at all lol and I was crying. lmao So now I'm really embarrassed to see the band and the family of the singer, Corey because that was unprofessional of me. ughh well I'll just have to tough it out. I got myself into this!
Also, his band is in a competition for fox providence news or something. It's pretty cool you vote online for their video and they are semi-finalists. I think they go on TV if they win. So on saturday Colin wants us all to have like a voting party where we literally all sit together on our computers and keep voting repeatedly. Colin is such a dork lol he has the absolute WORST ideas for parties. and he gets soooo excited about them its freakin adorable. lol ohhh Colinnnnn : ) that's this saturday.
oh also on friday I have my job interview for Kohls! I really hope I get it! I have 0 dolllarsssssssssssss to my name right now!
next week I'm in that show on friday for the band from Berklee. Then on the 24th I'm going to Norwich Academy in Vermont for a ball with my friend Jenn! All of her friends always need dates, and it gives us an excuse to see each other ; ) SWEEET
I know that probably seems like no plans at all. but my life recently has been extremely noneventful. so this is overwhelming for me actually lol
in a good way!
but why does everything have to happen all at once??!?! lol I wish these things were more spread out so I could fully enjoy all of them!
ok this is a super long post! I'll try to post a picture if i figure out how! See you tomorrow!
~Melissa Jayne ; )

my favorite photo of Dita Von Teese. FABULOUS!

this is absolutely amazing! : )

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pZ3cTwI9bIw




ahhh this made my day! : )

ta ta tuesdayy

Today was a pretty good day. I'm listening to the Beatles and I just had pizza for dinner. YUMM. : )
This morning I woke up in Boston Conservatory lol because I stayed with my friend Dan last night. I had a late rehearsal in boston with a new band. Just doing background vocals but very fun! I walked Boylston a bit and then waited for the 10:30 train back home. We had family therapy at 1:00. It went ok. I'm still not sure if i like our therapist yet. I just don't feel like she understands anything I'm saying. I think she kind of sides with my parents, but then I think that it's not a competition so why am I thinking about sides? I guess that's because we are always arguing. The whole session is basically my parents and I tattling on each other the entire time. It's pretty juvenile. I cried unfortunately. I don't know why I hate crying in front of my parents so much. I've cried in front of everyone and their mother this year lol but for some reason in front of my parents is like off limits. I feel weak or something. Anyways! After therapy my mother took me to lunch at Cosi which was delightful. I ordered a salmon salad and it was a very healthy and non-regretful choice : ) We went to Petco after lunch and I bought a chinese algae eating fish. I think I have an obsession with my new fish. I go to Petco almost everyday! haha and I ALWAYS buy a new fish! oh wellll I think my fish like having new friends! When I got home I checked my facebook and such until my sister said let's go somewhere! lol and since I have nothing better to do I was like okkk. So we went to Petco, naturally bahaha and we bought a special net for our pregnant fishy to have her babies in. I am SO EXCITEDD!! lol we will have little baby fishiesss! haha ok. Then we went to various stores to spend our quarters that we stole from the jar in our house because neither of us have any money. A man actually gave us a dollar at Target and it really touched me. I don't know why but that random act of kindness brought major points for humanity as a whole in my mind. I want to do something kind for someone now.
On our shopping trip I acquired these items with my change: 50 wood clothespins, almond & shea body spray, 3 different brown eyeliners, and the pregnant fish net thing. I think I did pretty good for quarters! : ) Successful trip I'd say and I enjoyed spending time with my sister.

Random things I thought about today:
1- at some point I NEED TO BE A TRUCK DRIVER. I just think it sounds like such a cool experience! and what better way to see the country than a road trip?? also, I'd be making money, and I'd bring a friend. It's definitely happening. I can't wait 8 )
2- I think that this summer my friends and I will have to each go into a dollar store with the same amount of money, and see what ridiculous things we can come out with, and then try to use them all. that sounds fun!
3- I decided that I want to get the most out of my life : ) So I am going to make a list of things to do before I have children, and not because I won't have a life then; but because it will be a different life and I will have to put them before myself. Anyways, there are just a lot of things I want to do, and why can't I do all of them? Why not?? NO REASON : ) I WILL.

Yayyyy! The end. I'm going to shower now. I think I like blogging! haha (NO ONE WILL READ THIS EXCEPT FOR ME)
lol see ya tmm! ; )

My very first blog.

Welcome, to my online diary on its birthday! : ) I guess I'll start with a little introduction to my life in a nutshell:
My name is Melissa Jayne. I am 18 years old and I am currently living at home in Massachusetts with my family. I have recently medically withdrawn from Berklee College of Music to get treatment for bulimia, substance abuse and depression. Contrary to my above problems lol I am generally an extremely happy and outgoing person, hence everyone in my life being so shocked that I could possibly have these issues. I know this seems like pretty heavy stuff, but I'll talk about it lightly most of the time with humor don't worry! I have been to 48 states in the U.S. and I have lived in Idaho, Texas, North Carolina, and Mass. My father is retired from the air force so we moved around a lot growing up. My parents are married and I have three siblings: an older sister, Rachel, a younger sister, Rebecca, and a younger brother, Christopher. My parents are both one of six children so we have a gigantic family with tons of cousins! I went to Berklee for voice, pursuing a career as a professional musician. I am planning to go back when I am done with treatment and have my head on straight lol I ABSOLUTELY LOVE MY SCHOOL. So, haha I have to go back! : ) Other important things in my life are my friends and at the moment figuring out who I am and finding happiness. This is getting a little lengthy lol but I think you sort of get the picture! Excited I've joined the blog community!